Year

Traditionally I start my year in a somewhat somber mood, not necessarily taking stock of the previous year, but psyching myself that I need to do better. I stopped making resolutions many years ago, however when I want to change towards a certain individuals or group of people, the new year is a perfect excuse.
A strange thought came to mind the last few hours of 2018 and occupied my mind for the first 10 hours of 2019. I have changed a lot! Not necessarily in a 'good' way, I have become immune to a lot of things, clear on a lot more, sand maybe more aware that I have very little time now. This is contrary to my initial thoughts and believe. I had to re-evaluate my family, life in my family and impact of that on my family. To be totally honest, what I discovered scared me to my bones. Things I do!  I don't feel like writing, would have done this when it first came to me, but I don't know again.